Help! im 12 and i have an axiety problem. i cant go to school because of it. -or anywhere else unless my moms with me. i hate this its soo horrible. why cant i be normal? im soooooo jealous of people my age who are normal and i would give ANYTHING to be like them. my friends all dumped me because they thought i was weird so i dont have any friends now. i just want to have to wake up and go to school! i dont know why this happened to me. at the end of third grade everything was pretty good, i had friends and maybe i wasnt the most popular in the class, but i was doing okay. but then when i went to 4th grade i lost it. -i cried all the time and i wouldnt go to school.i was really smart and i loved tennis, but i cant do it anymore because of my problem. im losing my smarts because im homeschoooled, and its not as good as real school. why me? why didnt my sister or friend get these problems? did i do something bad to deserve this? ive always been good and i obey rules. i have never done something bad enough to deserve this! ive tried therapists and counselers but none of them help. please help me, im losing my mind!!!!
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Yea I was on Zoloft(i think thats what it was called)but my mom took me off of it cus she didnt think it was working. now im afraid to take it again cus when i was taken off of it, i had this weird reaction where i stayed up shaking all night and i thought i was gonna throw up- which, by the way, is one of my fears. if i think im gonna throw up i start freaking out and thats one of the reasons why i dont want to go to school because if i dont feel good, i like to be at home. but now my mind tricks me into thinking i dont feel good anytime i get near a school or any place i have to be without my mom or sister.