Livin Life Like A Rock Star Deal With NOW, Leave The Pass In The Pass Can't Do Shit About It You Should Have Learned From It, Last But Not Least If You Not Worrying About The Future You Can Handle Whats Going On Now With Less Stress and Drama So Sleep Tonite and Just Deal With Tomorrow When You Wake Up.........

You wouldn't worry nearly so much about what other people thought of you if you knew how seldom they did.

Live life to the fullest with no regrets! Life is to short to look back on our mistakes we can only learn from them and move forward. Keep a smile on your face!

http://www.feedblitz.com/f/f.fbz?Vote=41 0

I have been In Bodybuilding & Competing sent's I have been 16. My Life as I grew up ,I was sent from home to home .The Lord has protected me & Been with me.& Provide Cover & protection over me, so no one could hurt me.
I married a man from Canada divorced him, I was seriously in to weight training cause that's all I had ever known. I had many friend's in whom love me. I am loyaled to everyone I have ever met .I will bend over backswords to help another human being in need.
There is a woman here In TN At Christmas time,She & Her kids were being thrown out of their trailer because, she didn't have the $880. In rent money to Pay for that month. I had just met her a week before. I had very little money at the time to buy my own kids Christmas present's. So I talked with my kids about it,
I went to the ladies house & Paid her landlord his $880 .So the lady & Her Children could have some were to live at Christmas .Then went to wal-mart & Put $350 .dollars on a  wall-mart card ,so that she could buy her 3 kids presents for Christmas,  cause when I went In their home .I seen a brick holding up a bare limb & It broke my heart !   If I would of only knew.?
Well, after that each week she'd come over asking to borrow$ 80 dollars or$ 60 dollars she said it was for the kids to eat so, I gave her all I had.
Then one day. I just told her .I was laid off along with 1500 hundred other people. & Couldn't give her a dime .I didn't have it. I only ,hardly had enough money for my kids Food to eat & I also had many bill's that had to be paid.
Then one day I seen her name in the news Paper
"To my surprise, she was a drug user the paper said she was on drug called crystal meth & hydro something its said..& was arrested & Put in jail for doing & processing controlled substances.. Drug's
.I felt like such a fool. For helping her in the 1st place. But I felt God, wanted me too, give back help. for all the years he has provided for me. .She made a fool out of me.
Now, I'm unemployed trying to make it myself without a job
.Never has she came & asked me IF she could help me or have I heard a thank you. Alanna.
 I don't regret helping her Kid's. Cause I look at it this way, at least the kids had a place to live at Christmas & Had toys. I took her oldest to the store then when I had money bought him Pant's ,underwear, shoes shirt's etc. HE was a good boy.
I thank God he let me help that Child. But ,Now I have nothing & probably would of had something to help me NOW, If I hadn't helped all those people. I must of help 20 people when I moved to TN  2 live. Many thank me all the time,.especially their Children
.The happiness I feel when they scream Mommies Crespo I love you. That's why, I have no regret's for I was an influence to them & their our future & what will they do when they get older.
They'll remember & help someone so .I have no regret's besides., I have to pay back The Credit card people & they want all the money at once. & I told them I am unemployed at this time & can only send $20 dollars a week, Now they want to take me to court .They say If I don't pay them all the money now. They'll take our home. I live alone with my 4 kids. I mean they were ok with 20 aweek at 1st but now???
I'm worried their going to take my home & My Children won't have a place to live. It's scaring me. Because I had no money to help the woman  & The only thing I could think of at the time & was the only way I could of helped her & get her money fast was to take out a credit card. Now I regret it.
Taking out a credit card to help a woman & her son's .The father beat the woman & Kids, when I met her I heard her ex- was a firefighter. One day, he went off & Hurt her & Put her In the hospital with one of the son's.
 He had the boys face looking like it was bleeding,his little eye's his look just tore my heart out,The Child  was hit badly, the cop's did virtually nothing.
I took them in my home & Hid them
 a while & feed them & loved the little boy, But the woman was nice, but she wanted to repay me in a way IN which I don't go
. I am all woman & Not interested in a woman & When she came on to me. I told her nicely. I am helping you cause I hate to see people hurt & There's no one to help
 so I have helped you, but I told her if you want me to help you .Never,ever...never ..try to kiss me or hug me in That way or any way again....
. That sort of got my temper up & I caught my self . I wanted to knock her out.. my self. until I realized she didn't know. I didn't want any thing in return..I know she was mess up bad by her ex- but ..um nope. I don't need that sort of thank you.
 I told her. I'm straighter than an arrow. In her thanks to me .can only be to protect her kids.& Her self & get away. & remember me ,In if one day she can help another woman. to do so
,( Without expecting something in return....... .& I took out a credit card & put them in a home ,with food were I know their safe in a different state, in which I will Not mention which State she Is  in case her ex is reading this.
Then one thing I will never understand?? about the way every thing happen .Because her EX- was a firefighter.well known,it bothers me . why The police department here wouldn't help her. Was it cause he was a decorated firefighter? Is that  a good enough reason to let him beat a child & His wife? & look over it & Let it go on like nothing happen. I mean: did he have to actually Kill her for the cop's to arrest This Jerk!. They never put him in jail 1 day. Were are the right's for woman today.
well. If you want to see me & My Family I am Alanna Crespo you can find me at MySpace.com I am not trying to make up stories .This is no scam .If you think it is.Then your not a human.This is about lives.& she still needs some help with furniture etc. If you'd like to help its clearly up to you .I understand many of you are in the same position .as I.BUt Prayer's help too.Even if you remember us in prayers.They are stronger than money..
Under my name Alanna Crespo
I am not asking anyone for a thing, no hand out's to help me pay 4 her & Help her .I am letting you decide if you can help.Even if its prayer's ladies & Gent's they help extremely alot. but If anyone out there would like to help me.I am still helping( S ) as much as I can. but I just can't anymore she's got me in the hole.I can't tell you her full name. BUt if you want to help .I have a p.o box it is.
Alanna Crespo
P.O.Box 83
Evensville,TN 37332
The bill I have to pay back for her& her kid's is alot on me. It is hard, but he would of killed her & here new born.& her other 2 boys & a girl. But some times we as people have to step up, in & Help .The woman call's me crying all the time thanking me.
 She has a new name given to her by the Judge. I hear & their all Happy.
I get all the time sad stories & bull crap stuff of people wanting money  & etc. If you think I am doing that. I ask God to open your eyes .& If you feel this is all lies then Please don't do any thing but If you do believe this to be true which it is.& Don't have any money to help
would you please remember us 2 woman in your prayers  God well help. I know I got myself into this myself by helping a family, but what would you have done. You know I regret it. But Even though. now I may lose my home cause of this. I'd help her again. IF you would of seen what I seen & Didn't do anything then ,You your self would of had no soul. Those of you who know me out there .Know I don't lie & Never in my life would except any sort of hand out's so you know. I just went a little over board when I seen the woman & Child's fear & Faces. Come on what would all have done.
 
I was squatting so much, I'd say at the time 550 & Tore my uterus  out & The Dr's said; I had 15 pre cent of a chance to have a kid, 10 years went by. I prayed to the lord for a son, a child. I didn't care the sex. I wanted someone of my own who would love me forever & not betray me. or leave.
But At the time I never thought the reason I wasn't having kids & everyone else was,Was cause I wasn't dating there for I had no intimate relations with any men finally marrieed had 4 kids divorced sold my home moved to TN.MAde the wordt mistake a person can make by moving here. I want to sell my home
 

Everything happens for a reason they say and i belive in the ways of karma. You dont always no why immediatly, but sometimes you see it later

Live Life like your Dancing and No one is Watching.. Love in life Like it's your last day on Earth, and Rememer to Pay it forward.

Adapt and overcome :)

"He who smiles last, probably found another meaning"

Revel in Life -- and Love.

No Lies!  Keep it real!